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I completed a Super Spartan race today. It was around 10-11...

elaine118 — Mon, 10 Sep 2012 17:46:35 -0400

I completed a Super Spartan race today. It was around 10-11 miles long. Uphill. Downhill. Uphill again. And so on and so forth. It was intense. And insane. And I can’t believe I did it! There were a bunch of obstacles though too. And I attempted them all. Not all successful, but all given my best shot. And there were ones I thought I’d fail for sure and have to do burpees, but then I did it! And that’s an amazing feeling.

And all the other racers were so friendly. For some of the wood wall climb/jumps that got really high, I made some of them on my own, but after a few my arms were shot and I fell and then these guys helped guide me up, a tiny boost.

Even when we were at the lake and we had to swim across and under the canoes in the way, but over the dock in the middle. I couldn’t get myself up on the dock because I was so weighed down with my shoes and clothes, and tired from the other obstacles. I kept trying and slipping. And this guy out of nowhere just grabs my hand and beasts me all the way up with one arm. Pretty awesome. I thought I’d end up pulling him in. He’s definitely a Spartan.

I went with a friend and he stayed with me parts of the way. I’d wave him on during some of the more intense parts for me when I was just crazy tired and slow. But every once and a while I’d see him again. Catch up. And then see him at the end when I finished.

We did this jump from like a 25-30ft ledge into the water. It was greattt. What a weird experience. You actually have time to think about the fact that you’re stillll falling as you fall. hah.

I was unsure, and scared, and nervous about most obstacles before I did them. I’d wait for ever sometimes just watching other people do it, before I psych myself up to go. I’d imagine all the things that could go wrong and think about how I avoid them. But on others I’d be like I dunno.. I dunno. For a sec. And then just go for it. And to just go for something. Even when you’re unsure. Despite the fear. It’s a rush.

I unfortunately didn’t train for this race like I intended to. I made mistakes. I tired myself out this week with drinking and late nights, and going out. I didn’t eat a proper breakfast this morning. But I still did it. I’ve never done a race before, not even a 5K. And to have my first completed race be a Super Spartan. I love it. I didn’t know how I’d get through it, but after hours and hours eventually I too did jump that fire and run through the finish line. So I was slow. I’m just glad I finished.

And if I can truck through and find a way through that craziness. I know I’ll be okay, and I can do things I think I can’t. Things I wouldn’t believe. Things I’m afraid of, that I think too much about.

There was a guy talking while we were trekking up an incline. And I heard him say. That this type of experience changes you and how the first time he did a race like this, it changed him. Maybe that sounds melodramatic. Or corny. But I believe it.

Starting out the year with this under my belt feels good. Even though right now my body feels bad and in much pain. Stinging cuts. Sore muscles. Blisters. Bruises. Etc. But it was worth it. As much as I was cursing the miles through. It still was.

So I’m deciding to abandon this separate fit/exercise/health side blog I had to my personal everything blog. I realize that being healthy and making better life choices, which include choices on exercise and nutrition should not be looked at as something apart from the rest of my life. I have one life. And all the aspects within it all go together and affect one another. After having completed this race, all the obstacles I had to go through and push through and try and try and try as hard as I can, are all relevant to my everyday life. So, this blog is done. And I will continue on with just my regular personal blog.

Went night schwimming tonight around midnight. Trying to get...

elaine118 — Sun, 01 Jul 2012 01:34:00 -0400

Went night schwimming tonight around midnight. Trying to get some more exercise. Did about 50 lengths of the pool. I’m not exactly sure what would be considered a lap, if it’s just one length of the pool, or it’s back and forth. If it’s back and forth then I did about 25 laps I guess. Breast stroke. Froggy style. I can never keep the water from traveling down my nose and throat with free style. For a while I just listened to music while treading water, or doggy paddling haha.

The pool was at its warmest from baking in the sun all day. My lungs kept feeling like they were about to burst from the pressure, from the lack of oxygen, from the lack of exercise. I need to keep myself moving. TIme is running out before the race in September and I’ve been in a rut of starting and stopping exercise. And a slew of other bad habits that don’t help…

Focus!

What have I done...

elaine118 — Tue, 22 May 2012 18:12:00 -0400

I sort of fell off the map health and running wise once school started to get more stressful and finals and projects weighed heavily on me till the end of the semester.

I haven’t ran in a while. I haven’t been eating mindfully.

Once summer started I’ve been having more all nighters than when I was at school, getting less sleep than I know I should.

Working. Hanging out. Being tired. That was my summer.

Occasionally, I would go on walks with my dog and boyfriend. But they’d only be about 3 miles at most, at a pretty easy pace.

My friend saw a deal for a Spartan Super Race. We had both talked about how we wanted to try a spartan race one day. ONE DAY. But he bought it already, and then implored me to do so as well. And another friend bought one too.

I thought I’d first start out with a Spartan Sprint, and be killed by that. But to go straight to a Super Spartan in the terrible shape I’m in. What was I thinking?

Because I bought it.

This is crazy.

What have I done.

I can’t even fathom how it’ll go.

The race is September 9th. Oh god oh god.

Time to make some changes in my summer schedule.

I don’t even know what to do, how to even prepare for something like this as a person who is not in the least ready. But I need to be as ready as I can possibly get.

Today’s run! It was super hot out, and I didn’t...

elaine118 — Thu, 22 Mar 2012 18:53:00 -0400

Today’s run! It was super hot out, and I didn’t exactly know where I was going yet. Never ran between campuses before, or on the other campus ever. Hate dodging cars too, and I got lost. But overall a good run! Still pretty slow. But I think I’m getting better if just every so slightly. :D

My thighs are so sore, but that’s good right? Push on!

3.34 miles

11:13 first mile

40 minutes total

My after midnight run/jog/walk around the athletic field. It was...

elaine118 — Wed, 21 Mar 2012 03:15:00 -0400

My after midnight run/jog/walk around the athletic field. It was dark and no one was there. At least when I started.

2 laps in, I see these two figures walking across the field. I figure, alright whatever maybe they want to run too, or they’re just cutting through to somewhere else. I forget about them until a short while later when I reach the other side of the track and accidentally interrupt their make out session against the fence underneath the scoreboard.

WHOOPS…. I ran around them awkwardly. And the picked up and moved out walking back across the field.

But they never reached the other side. They disappeared in the middle by the athletic storage hut things and I never saw them emerge again.

Which left me feelin’ slightly odd as I continued to go around the track thinking I was circling these people as they did their “couple” things…or who knows what. But I continued anyway. Ended. Walked back to the busstop and went home.

Odd as it was. This late exercise sesh was a good idea. I feel great.

I finished the first mile at about 11 minutes, almost 12. And then I started to get tired and bored of the continuous circling…I just got to focus more.

So stop thinking about it. And be it. Yes.

elaine118 — Sat, 17 Mar 2012 19:05:33 -0400

So stop thinking about it. And be it.

Yes.

True true true.

elaine118 — Sat, 17 Mar 2012 03:26:02 -0400

True true true.

Moodyness. I hate it. I spent all of today in bed in the dark, and not even sleeping. It’s...

elaine118 — Fri, 16 Mar 2012 23:17:00 -0400

Moodyness. I hate it. I spent all of today in bed in the dark, and not even sleeping. It’s spring break for me, but it’s not okay. I have so much to do, and I wasted it. It’s 11pm but I finally got up and out of bed. Put on my music, and I’m ready for tonight. It’s going to be a productive night; it’s got to be. Cleaning, both literally and figuratively. Doing work for school that I’m behind on. And getting a jump on the things I have to get done early tomorrow before I go to work.

Even when you feel totally shitty and down, even if there’s absolutely no reason for it, and you feel overwhelmed by whatever it is…you can get up and begin again.

onehundreddayproject: Submitted by: Anon Hahaha! Doubt...

elaine118 — Thu, 15 Mar 2012 09:29:48 -0400

onehundreddayproject:

Submitted by: Anon

Hahaha! Doubt that’s gonna happen because MY brother is super skinny and tall, but I can try to be more fit than him!

freshandfun: Here is a good idea for breakfast or snack! 1/4...

elaine118 — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 13:56:00 -0400

freshandfun:

Here is a good idea for breakfast or snack!

1/4 cup quick oats
1 egg (sub. 1/4 egg beaters for less calories)
small handful of blueberries
little bit of brown sugar/stevia (optional)
tbsp soymilk or regular milk(for added moistness!)

Mix it all up into a coffee mug!
Put it in the microwave for 1 minute, make sure it doesn’t overflow! Add an extra 30 sec if it needs to firm up.

So delicious!

I wanna try now!

Drinking more water! Hydrate hydrate!! Best thing to do on the...

elaine118 — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 13:50:43 -0400

Drinking more water! Hydrate hydrate!! Best thing to do on the road to a healthier life. :D

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elaine118 — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 01:24:06 -0400

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elaine118 — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 01:21:49 -0400

Had cabbage and Torta (egg, shrimp, potato, scrambled mix type deal) for dinner. And more water! And...

elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 21:02:00 -0400

Had cabbage and Torta (egg, shrimp, potato, scrambled mix type deal) for dinner.

And more water! And lots of the cabbage! Is that even good for you?

I dunno, but it’s gotta be better than some of the other things I was wanting to eat…

Haha I’m so beautiful when I get back in from...

elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 20:14:00 -0400

i'm gross when i exercise

like. why.

my route. "walking"

same route, "running"

Haha I’m so beautiful when I get back in from walking/jogging/running. (yeah right)

My endomondo tracker says walking. Because I don’t feel like I can justify listing it as running when I took a bunch of walk breaks. I’m not fit enough to run the whole way. But I will in time. I will.

Anyway. I have my route listed as both running/walking. The time stats change with the activity. Why doesn’t endomondo have a “jogging” setting…meh oh well.

Did 20 pushups and 30 crunches. Not much. But I’ll increase in time.

Also. I took a picture when I came back in. All sweaty and gross. Opened up photobooth and saw that other picture of me with the fruit by the foot.

Like why. It’s moments like those that got me gainin’ weight. Oh sweet tooth.

Yes.

elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 18:41:00 -0400

Yes.

Lunch…even though it was like at 5:30pm. Salad with boiled...

elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 18:19:00 -0400

Lunch…even though it was like at 5:30pm.

Salad with boiled shrimp. Balsamic dressing. Slice of Torta…which for me as a Filipino was a sort of scrambled egg type deal with potatoes and shrimp as the meat of it. This one also contained some veggies in it.

I didn’t really measure to count calories. It gets a little difficult with Filipino food unless I made it myself and cut it into exact pieces…which doesn’t really happen.

But I’ve told myself I can still eat healthily without it being so hard or tedious. There was a time that I lost weight, by counting everything. And after I had gone down like 10-15lbs I stopped counting and just ate normally with the exception of sweets and junk food binging which I used to do a lot.

And I stayed at that lower weight for a while. Without counting. But then I started to get too relaxed with my eating and started having junk food and sweets binges like I used to. I started stress eating. And boredom eating. And I started to gain some weight back.

So. Here’s to going back to better proportions and better food choices, without an iron fist on calorie count. ;)

Also had another mug of water with my meal. And working on another right now.

I like the last line the best.

elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 17:30:00 -0400

I like the last line the best.

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elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 08:31:00 -0400

Woke up at 5am this morning after what was supposed to be...

elaine118 — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 07:19:00 -0400

Woke up at 5am this morning after what was supposed to be yesterday’s 5pm nap. I missed dinner, and thought I’d be really hungry this morning. Didn’t think I was actually going to get up at 5, but I wasn’t feeling well so I needed to take a shower and clear up my sinuses and such, drink some water etc. So I figured I might as well go on and start my day! This was the breakfast I prepared for myself thinking I’d be pretty hungry. I didn’t finish it.

I had…

-1 slice raisin bread toast

-spread of peanut butter… (exact amount unknown…whoops)

-slices of bananas, as seen ontop of bread

-1 grapefruit

I didn’t end up eating the rest of the banana on the plate, or the babybel cheese.

I love Babybel. But I can eat that later as a snack. And so far today I’ve had a mug of water, and I have another full mug sitting next to me.